Latest thoughts part five - ministry

I have normally apologised along the journey when, usually in hindsight, I understand that I have neglected someone. This has usually occurred through being, mostly correctly, completely focussed on the bigger picture of the wider community. But what about apologies due to me that are not forthcoming? What do you do with that going forward? 

I actually had a couple apologise to me a few years down the track (for potentially being part of destabilising my ministry) when they came to realise that God's mission into the world sometimes needs to have a higher priority than internal church agendas. That they had themselves become so involved in significant mission was gratifying enough for there to be no further tension between us. 

Yet I still await an apology from CCVT for the appalling way they handled one ministry situation (having taken on one of their basket-case churches and brought new purpose and relevance) - an apology that will likely never happen. You can forgive and move on, but the anger and resentment never really goes away. What do you do with this? 

I have learnt that you channel this disappointing experience into your understanding of how humans operate when under pressure or distracted by other priorities, and then later change the narrative to fit their own objectives. All experience, even the worst ones, are valuable in creating a more intuitive, wise, mature and effective follower of Jesus.